Let me explain

Ok, so I haven't exactly blogged the past two days. I do feel guilty. But it's been a hectic weekend that has pretty much climaxed this Monday morning. Hopefully the rest of the week will be much better, especially since it's my birthday this week. Yeah, a good 21st would be wonderful--though I'm not sure it's possible. Things that would make my birthday great? 1) If B (the guy who I've been "crushing" on) were to wish me a Happy Birthday. 2) Seeing Alex and Mae. 3) Winning something at the casino on Wednesday. 4) Getting a decent present--stupid, I know, but I never really get anything I like because, well, I'm a very hard person to shop for...not really, but everyone seems to think so. 5) If Holly were to call me--even though she can't unless she got to a payphone in Denmark and she's dealing with a lot right now. 6) If the whole weekend went by without hearing from or of T--because, secretly, I would like to hear from him, but it would be better for me if I didn't hear from him and I heard from B instead. That would make me happiest because then I can forget T............I think those are enough hopes. I really do hope B wishes me happy bday. I'm so juvenile like that. But it would show that he pays attention to me and it would give me hope....even if he only knew through a facebook reminder. Because, when it comes to men, noticing the reminder is a big step.

So why has this weekend been so hectic you ask? Ok you didn't, but I'll assume you did. Well, on Friday night, I went to the UCB Noteworthy show with Katie, Sean, and Katie's housemate Julia where I met up with Emma and her friend (or was she her roommate...), Arlene, as well; before which, I went to dinner with Katie, Sean, and Julia at House of Curries--for the second time that week. This time, however, I didn't get the Lamb Vindaloo which leaked all over my bag last time. I got the Chicken Tikka Masala; actually, all of us got the same thing. It was fucking amazing. No wonder everyone orders that. Yeah, then we went to the show of the group I posted the video of. They were amazing. There were other groups performing too as guests, but Noteworthy made my night. Then I made the mistake of going home early instead of sticking around and going to the after-party that Katie ended up going to. But I had a lot to do the next day and I was tired. I slept a whole 4 hours....the other 6 I just tossed and turned.

Saturday I went to Old Navy to go and buy some shirts because all of mine are short sleeve and it's getting pretty damn cold. So I went and got a few shirts, a really cute pencil shirt and one of my birthday presents: a coat. I really needed one and it's a really nice cropped peacoat, which I love because I get the look of the peacoat without the box look. So I shopped. I would have gone into Sephora but I also bought a Cashmere sweater--which I now have to take back because upon further inspection, I've found a hole in it. This makes me sad because it can't just be fixed and it was the last one in my size in light gray. Figures. So then I got home, spent 5 hours making a cake for the lunch party the next day. Only the filling didn't stick--it kept separating--so I really didn't finish the cake until the next morning when I got some more eggs and tried again. Oh, and the spun sugar I was making to decorate it got too moist and beaded instead of drying. I was not happy.

But on Sunday I woke up at six, after only sleeping another four hours, and I went to get more ingredients, came back and cleaned and cooked and then got ready to go pick some people up. I picked up Katie, Emma, and Kirsten--who knows and appreciates my cooking skills--and they came over and we watched To Wong Foo while I finished making lunch. It took me until 3--when Lydia (who I changed the date for in the first place), Jenn, and their boyfriends showed up. Perfect timing! Go me! Overall, the whole lunch thing was great. There were 8 of us total and I'm glad there weren't many more because I have no idea how that would have went. As it was they completely finished it off. Apparently, my cooking is so good, seconds are required. I served chocolate covered caramels, salad, vegetable alfredo (with portabella mushrooms, asparagus, onions, and bell peppers), and bread--oh and of course, the cake. Which was good, though I'll never make it again because it was a pain in the ass and I still wasn't satisfied with the filling--though the Ganache was pretty amazing.

After the party me and Katie went to the Alumni Chorus concert where we met Sean (again) and Kimmianne and Krystin and others. It was really good. Though their diction needed help. After the concert we spent most of the rest of our time together insisting that instead of singing "chariot ride" they were singing "cherry pie" and proceeding to make up comedic lyrics to go with this idea. It was fun. Very fun. I do like hanging out with choir people. They're so....animated and vocal...like me.

Today, however, sucked. I got up 5 minutes before I had to leave for Anthro discussion without having remembered to write my two page paper and so I'm checking my email before I leave and my best friend wrote me back. I got really excited because I miss her and every letter from her makes me so happy. This one made me concerned and helpless. Her friend there that was the whole reason Holly got to go to Denmark had a heartattack in the shower and died. I didn't know her, but Holly did, so I'm sure I would have liked her. But the worst part is Holly's in pain and she's 12,000 miles away and I can't be there for her. She doesn't get phone reception there and I'm not close enough to go there for her. And all I have to get a hold of her is email. I'm so worried. I hope she doesn't feel guilty that she couldn't help her. I just wish I could help her make reason of all this but I can't. I just want to hug her.

Anyways, top picture is the caramels I made, the next is that hazelnuts I rustically cracked with hammer, and then of course the five hour cake!